I have MS- WHAT THE H@#!?

So, it has been a very interesting week. It has been strange and wonderful and scary and even a little fun. I have been having numbness and tingling in my lower body for about 6 weeks now. It took me about 4 weeks to get to the doctor and after ruling out bulging discs and MS and tumors in my brain after the 1st set of MRIs I went back for some more last Friday. They did my neck and middle back this time and found an MS lesion in my spinal cord. So I went to the doctor on Monday thinking that MS was ruled out and nope I guess you can get it in your spinal cord as well. So, it was a little shocking. I have a sister in law that has MS. Her MS is fairly far gone, she spends alot of time in bed and she is in tons of pain all of the time. By the way, I haven't had to deal with pain. Discomfort, yes, but not pain so I am so grateful for that.
So blessing #6738 for the day, my doctor is a rock star. She said, Okay is there a friend or family member who can take care of your kids tomorrow so we can get your baseline test done tomorrow so I can get you started on treatments? Blessing #6741 (I am sure that a couple blessings slipped through there while I was trying not to cry and trying to take this in.) So I called one of my best friends, Michelle, and asked her if she could take my kids so I could go get a spinal tap in the morning- do ECGs (they send electrical currents down your nerves to check how fast your nerves are responding- COOL Huh?) and do muscle testing. Then at 4pm I got to start the first steroid treatment. I was trying not to cry, but I was having a hard time not crying when I was trying to ask her if she could take my kids. She told me later that she was talking to her husband and it must be bad because she said that I was crying and I don't cry that much (if she only knew) So, we got everything set up and by the way. My doctor is so great. She wanted me to get the treatments started right away and she wanted a clinic that was open on Saturday so I could do the treatments for 5 days starting on Tuesday. There weren't any IV treatment centers open on Saturday so we are going to go for 4 days and see where that leaves me. I am assuming we are going to get together and do more tests next week to see how the steroid treatments go. The treatment centers weren't being as helpful as my doctor wanted so she got on the phone and started asking for supervisors and got me into the treatments for the next day. She rocks.
We get everything set up and I am just kind of numb literally and figuratively and I need to go to the lab next door and get blood drawn for the 3rd time to finished the gluclose testing. (I don't have diabetes- YIPPEE!!!! ) done, but first I head to bathroom so I can have a break down in the relative privacy of the bathroom stall. I wasn't able to cry for very long because there was a horribly strong nasty floral air freshner. It was horrible I could only stand it for a few minutes. So I put cold paper towel on my face and that helped a tiny bit, but my eyes were bright blue like they get when I cry and my face was all splotchy, but I went to get my blood drawn for the last time and got into the car. I called Kevin right when I got to the car, because I needed to talk t0 him. I probably should have waited until he got home, but I really needed to talk to him. So, he was a little shocked as well. I was crying on the way home.
I drove home and when right to Michelle's house because she had had my kids for a few hours and I figured that was enough, but I couldn't find her. I went over to Elise's house thinking that Michelle would be over there, but she wasn't. Elise asked if I was OK because it looked like I was crying. So I told her and she got really upset, and that was a good and bad thing (blessing 7,397 for the day). She was talking about how things were so hard and what a tragedy it was and I thought - no it isn't. I told her that about 10% of people with MS don't have a huge problem with it and I have decided that I am within that 10%. It's going to be OK. When I was driving home I was thinking about what I need to be learning from this. What do I need to be understanding about the world and my family and life through this experience. In General Conference one comment from Henry B Eyring was, "The disciple that accepts a trial as a way to grow..." I am going to have to look that one up because I didn't get the whole quote, but it was good.
Anyway, I went to pick up Marcus from school and came back to Jen's house to see if she was there. She had gotten the slip and slide out for all of the kids and was having fun) I sent my kids to go get in their swimsuits and went to go get Anna at Michelle's. I told her and it was much easier the 3rd(Jen) and 4th (Michelle) time.
Okay I am going to visualize falling asleep and being grateful for being asleep and then I can get a little more sleep before I have to get up to get Jeremy ready for school. This has been exhausting to get this all out of my head. I think I need to go back and write everything so that it makes more sense. I was even thinking that this would be a great way for me to write a book. I could share all the preparation that I realize I have been going through over the last few months to prepare for me for this event. It has been miraculous all of the blessings that have been heaped on my family. I wish Kevin were in the same place as me. I think he would be a little more calm about the whole thing if he had a similar perspective, but time can help him with that. We all move at our own speeds. He will understand. You just never know what blessings are going to come from a trial. I have been marveling at the blessings of my friends, family and everything. It is so amazing that we have so many blessings and Heavenly Father if just ready to keep on giving all the time. Everything is in abundance-as much as we can enjoy.
Tomorrow I will have to share about all of the blessings of that day of tests and treatments. It was amazing.
Smile, Laugh and Be Happy
Becky

Wind in the trees

I am sitting in bed with the laptop. I am listening to the wind in the trees. It is strange that the wind doesn't seem to be coming into the house-it is just blowing past my window. I can imagine it blowing through the neighbor's aspen trees.
It has been a great day today. We had someone come and look at our house today. They really liked it, but we will see what will come of it. They wanted to move either before July or after they have their new baby. They were really cute. I think they would fit in really well. They have one little blonde boy and another little boy on the way.
I wonder how long it has been since we submitted that offer on the Hoskin's house. I will have to check my email and see. I think i am going to try to do an open house on Saturday for the house and we will see if we can get more people in to see how great our house is. I am falling asleep as I type. Time to go to bed.---
Smile Laugh lots and Be Happy.